What No Disclaimer Can Disclaim

This is going to hurt, but it's too late for me to do anything about the fact that I am now sealed to this place. You are going to have to be intelligent enough to be humble if you are going to be able to truly benefit from these words. All I can say is that I am using serious restrain and the words that you find insulting were chosen with one purpose intended, and purpose is clarity.

In full disclosure, I cannot deny that while writing it I cannot get over the fact that chosing kind and loving, caring and compassionate words will work. If that were possible, my using those nice tones to state this would not be the determining the factor in whether or not you will heed my warning.

In other words, if the only way to get through to you depended on my words being kind, you would benefit from my warning because you have no idea, not a clue about the message I am trying to communicate. I completely understand that you do not understand psychology, as it is THE most difficult of all the science disciplines, but I can assure you that

one is to two

as

eleven is to twelve

type of comparison or relationship models, todays psychology industry is as literally close to literal as anything can get to using leeches to cure anything. Literally because the logic behind the use of leeches does nothing but harm or make seeking medical assistance the last thing to be on the list of procedure to get well because if what is making you sick is in your blood stream, and it is a living agent, you are so fucked that honestly if our Medical Doctors today in their entire story from start to finish, if they were in the place where Psychology/Psychiatry is in their entire story you would be better off just raising your temperature to the redline of life in that immediate house an understand that is a last ditch attempt, because the bottom line is, you are trying to get a calculator come up with the number "Five" but you are only programs that will never give you anything close to "Five" because the rules the calculator must follow is rounding to the tens place. It will only give you a zero or ten and nothing in between.

It is how significant figures work, it is how calculus works, it is the reason you will never get a functioning calculator to report the number "Five" when the only time it uses numbers other than zero or ten, are in magnitudes ten times greater than what you are looking for. In the simplest literal non-machine answer model terms, the only numbers your calculator will give you that have "Five" are

FIFTY which is 50 FIVE HUNDRED which is 500 FIVE THOUSAND which is 5000

Which means, in the simplest relative way you might be able to understand what that means for the industry's ability to successfully not do more harm than if they honestly did nothing, would be one in ten people who got treatment would not get worse.

That means you are stupid if you seek treatment from a professional, because they are confusing the fact that "not get worse" does not in any way imply they are getting better or benefitted at all. Whether or not a patient's symptoms of sickness are alieviated is a completely different set of odds. We are only talking about one in ten people not being harmed by the act of receiving treatment from an industry of professionals who are approaching a discipline of Science, from a method that is used in the Arts and letters sort of way

Van Gogh painted some beautiful pictures, but he took his own life due to his psychological state

If you want art for the wall of your rooms, Van Gogh's paintings might suit you well, but it will only be a print or imitation, but if you are seeking relief or comfort from problems that are psychological as opposed to the ailments that a medical doctor treats, using Van Gogh's art side of his life to find relief for the science side of your emotional pain will come but it will come in the form of Death

And make no mistake, this Death will be in the order of Magnitudes that equals Final Death

And now I am not speaking of the field of Psychology, I mean mankind as a whole, and I mean that literally. Which means I need to point out to you the extremely flawed frame of mind that our rules the entire race of Human Beings, because this world is ruled by males, that rules' Death is unavoidable, because testosterone is only advantageous in the fight side of fight or flight mechanism, and that is best suited for the world of cave men. Not only are we out of those times, but we are now seeing the effects of a male controlled world that refuses to be honest, or is just too stupid to understand because the concept I speak of of too far beyond what he is capable of understanding

Those types of males, the ones who do not understand, instead of reforming, instead of taking the time to realize going forward from this state will end in a topple from the top, and a fall all the way down

Instead of fixing what is wrong, here and now, he does not understand at this point that there is no way to survive until the problem is resolved, that doing anything else besides what is necessary to keep the body alive while it sets idle until the problem is solved, all else will be deleterious. It is not wise to continue on unless you have vast experience with problems that in reality, are the difference between Life or Death. It is not wise because every step forward you take becomes a gamble, and because the gambling you are doing is on a magnitude of Life and Death, the foolish do not survive. The things that live and make it past these crossroads understand that when dealing with Life or Death of something's existence, if the existence is important, you don't play gambling games, you do everything possible to address reducing the risk.

And of course everything is situational, if the existence we are speaking about the Life and Death of, is your life, a sane person would understand how to balance the management of risks in the world you life is LIVED in. You wouldn't remain in a safe box protected from all elements of every single risk. It would be paranoid to refuse to travel by automobile ever, but it would be smart to make your trip to the 24hr grocery store at any time OTHER than right after last call and closing when the mega-bar closes and the hundreds of factory workers drive home under the influence and it would be considered not smart to regularly accept a ride from the most inebriated person in the bar night after night.

The male mentality that is used by the males who hold governing power, or who are one of the actual people who decide for a republic, hold fast to a method that relies on subtlety, as the go to plan and subtlety has become the rule of these days because in politics being direct means fooling the voters, or whatever it takes to keep the public complacent

Yes I am shifting gears, you had better move with me or you risk a permanent death as my message is important

You must recognize where we are in these days in this age of the existence of Human Beings

Since our ancestors beginning there has always been a rise and fall, booms and bust, and because often the length of time that passes in between these cycles is so great we are left with remenants of life, signs of a past that feels alien or something or sometime of existence that was in another world. We don't recognize what it's like to be returned to an animal mind. When every waking moment of your life is spent simply staying alive and you have bigger fish to fry which are ONLY the fish of living, and you don't have fryers for cooking as a hobby, you become oblivious to all other ways that may help improve you situtaion for or in the future

Cavemen didn't have time to thiunk about anything other than surviving, and the first ones that had time to think about scribbling on a wall, or giving thought to spirituality and religion, was either extremely lucky to be blessed, or else wrought with emotional pain that had become unbearable

Neither the blessed luck nor the unbearble pain would be a life choosen by anyone of today's standards. I know many people fantasize with dreams of the last people who to live without the chemicals we have today, like the Native or Indigenous Family members as we know the many family members today, but the truth is we cannot comprehend even the best life, we cannot comprehend even the life of the wealthiest people back then, as we would have to assimilate before we can remember what it's like to be wired with the frame of mind necessary for life other than the house we currently live in.

But regardless of the fact that if you mind had your current wiring, you could live survive living anywhere but the equator because you could not survive the pain from the discomfort of feeling cold, no matter what indigenous life you had become assimiliated to, most if not all, will quickly submit to readily choosing the relief and comfort that recent times offer once they experience the misery from prolonged pain, sometimes it doesn't even have to be prolonged, especially the misery of teeth and back pain

which are like the spiritual pressure points of forcing any life into submission

even to the point that the individual will take their own life, which is submission to Death


There has only been One Who would not submit His life unto Death, and it is a story that the immediately living do not or cannot comprehend, so the story as it was written so that they can understand, is told in parable and more commonly known as the story of the life and crusifiction of the Messiah, also known by several different names of Jesus, known by religious massed as Christ

Our minds, no matter what we think of our intelligence, do not comprehend the reality of what His compassion for even those who hate Him. If dying on the cross is the the most unpleasant experience you can imagine, or you tell yourself that if you had everything at He Had at his disposal anybody could have done it, you don't know pain, you don't know betrayal, you don't unfairness, you don't much of anything, and you would likely mistake Heaven for Hell because you do not remember. You do not remember that did what was necessary to earn and come to a mutual place of respect with Death

Death doesn't discriminate nobody if not forced into submission, if you are lucky, he will ignore your existence for the time people would call a life span, and you do understand that respect being shown to you by Death, is because there One person who earned that respect as acted as Our Advocate

I write to you today in the hopes that you will take a moment to realize that the cycles of boom and bust, are obselete times the all the world's many populations The People who are Human Beings. The Busts that occur in this order of magnitude is the Final End, and your life in heaven will not be with recognized family. When the house is framed with the mind of animals, the blessings administered is that you don't remember, and that you don't have the time of the excess to be lucky enough to even begin to think about memories just for the fuck of it.

But if you didn't recognize the signs of deep water oil rig disaster, you will not likely understand the concepts I am speaking of and I will leave it there because beyond this point, I will only sound arrogant and it will only serve to make matters worse, and I am trying to make them better, because even I did not realize that we are in danger of a collective extinction of Human Being in all of the lands that are all on earth, and all of the earth that being lands we are allowed Life as Human Beings, even I did not understand that that privilege, was in serious danger of being revoked

And when I saw all the evidence, there was nothing I could say in our defense, I sat in silence praying that we understand that such a fate is inevitable unless someone can convince People to change

Nessie In Another Ocean

oh!

So you serve God?

What kind of LORD is one who relies on lies?

you are no servant of God, no faith in the LORD

you serve yourself

What kind of a master is one who must manipulate in order to appear superior?

coming via a boxcar *fiction*

**the photograph I did not take, but I do recognize the area, I found this photo in a dumpster I had dropped off as I have been not had my garbage collected for a long time (but you can believe that it gets damn cold at night, esp with the huge open door riding on a freight train)**

I wish I could credit the photographer, but the posted image was NOT from me

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nearing home, traveling just for the experience by unauthorized train ride

something I would never do again, not even during summer

and I probably wouldn't have road all the way home had I had a GPS or known where I was during most of the ride north from California

once we got to the Siskiyou Mountain, I knew riding the train was a mistake, but we went ahead and went all the way to Eugene

the only picture I have I almost threw away last week, but I plucked it out of the bag destined for dump container

no matter how prepared you are for the cold, it still feels like you're freezing

Because I still don't comprehend.

I only understand that some people are pissed and some people are not. I only know that when there is no middle elves, it's called polarizing. I am not trying to be a weasel, I am not trying to confuse people with weasel words. It just seems to me that when there are few people in the middle (as in undecided or don't care) that something is either awfully wrong, or reached a tipping point. The only thing I know is that I am not intentionally trying to piss off those who are pissed. While I am sure that everything I post seems very thought out and calculated, I assure you it is not (although I wouldn't believe me either, but because it really is my typing out instant thoughts and rarely proofreading, posting thoughts on a whim is honestly all I am doing; in fact it is almost the only thing I write, everything just a reaction to what I had just read or heard minutes before. I do filter my words as I understand that the times I get pissed off, are more than likely due to a misunderstanding)

skylines

rainbowed sunset

thin clouds

it's the shape of things

I guess just posting because I got my camera back from the pawn shop, and I what I really like is the way the street lights flatten at the top of the the V. Like a seagull's wings or an ancient crown

new star

When she remembered to breathe. Not so much having to regulate her breathward in, because her inhalation was reaction, and not in her control.

Within her power she organized the waves of imminent energy emanating, this was of her radiant soul. The power was hers completely, exhalation of the wind, orchestrating her will over the overlapping storm.

The conductor of the crashing waves, she remembered she was mother to, the ringing bell, the rising tide, the flood from which Goddess is born.

मग्नेटिक force

magnetic force

There is a fairly new bookstore that opened up in my town. I have trouble going in there because nearly every book I pick up, I buy. It took me three trips before I figured this out.

I asked the owner where all the books had come from. They were her mothers. Her mother owned and ran her own bookstore on a road named a river, the same as her store. The books on the shelves were her mothers.

But it was her daughter who shelved the books today. Her families book collection was now hers. I can only imagine the magic she was taught in arrangement. Because her store is magically arranged.

Each of the four corners of her store is a different land. Four steps past the entrance is where everyone pauses who enters. They can feel it as they choose which land they want to visit, as they are transported closer with every step to a corner. You can see them feel it, the pull gets stronger and their steps quicken, the magnetic force between a book and the reader completes the last step.

it's magic, you don't remember actually picking up the book when you get close enough. It's the final step where the pull is the strongest, by then it's too late, the book is my hand.

that's what happens, that's how it goes when the books are a family collection. When each of the books were read and held onto, brought to the spot, and shelved for who they were held for,

when they are ready, when they arrive at the spot, they come off the shelf for who they were held for

there is nothing anybody can do about it, when a book that was held, on the shelf her daughter shelved, it will pull itself into the hands of who holds it.

the rightful hand now holds it

el-eye-FA

el-eye-FA life

And isn't it weird how some say "grand"

the coincidences that come as if by the hand

That gives the empty spaces a voice

in the diagonal lines irregardless author's choice

Ephraim the lower left hand

connecting the right top hand court

Acorn to a corner

Two pairs of opposition

and angle of reflective symmetry

A Plane anew

in every writing

when inuformed letters ring true

not neat, but flowing

penmanship owning

from same source forever

from any persons writing

endeavor

from the middle you will start

is all the matters

from there up or down

first or reversed

reveals identical verse

insane truths and it's echo

in the ring of God's personal bell

obliviating the all concepts of hell

Hour el-eye-FA

The Paper

I love my local newspaper. The thought for the day today mentions something about life being a foreign language, and that all men will fail to pronounce it correctly.

So I got to thinking, what if someone explained the correct pronunciation of this word "life"

Even if the common and most generally accepted as well as most used way to speak it is incorrect,  not that I am saying anything needs or should be changed (as that is not for me as an individual to decide except for how I, as one individual speaks it.)

But I thought I would share with you what I hear as the correct way to pronoun say  life

el-eye-FA

I should inform you that while it is my understanding that above this sentence is in fact the correct way to pronounce it, I admit I more times than not say it how the majority of the English speaking population says it.